Time

It's been 1840 days since my Lovie and I got married, so far we've lived in three places, on our forth car which we bought brand new and had 17 miles on it when we drove it off the lot. We have two cats, which are our babies since we haven't had any human children, not to sound crass it's not a lack of trying or want. We go on dates every week.

Sleep

I took two pain pills, and a sleep aid so I wouldn't have to go through out the day alone, when my husband got home and after we had dinner, I took a bath and almost fell a sleep. I'm so depressed because of words that were said although they were suppose to have come from a good place, I felt they we harsh and uncalled for.

Sigh

First day without my Lovie in 17 days, it sucks... and I wish he were here, It might seem weird or odd, that we can and like to spend all that time together, but we love each other and can't wait to see one another.

And I have a migraine, from a lot of crying and stress the past couple of days, hopefully things will get better as the week goes on, but right now I laying in bed taking it easy.

Another day goes by

I haven't been doing well since the receiving the news of having P.C.O.S, and finding out that friends of mine are pregnant, and I nearly had a panic attack. I am happy for them, really but I'm still upset. I called my sister to see if she could get some financial papers for me so I can get them sooner then next week hopefully, I really need to figure out what I am going to do, I need to try to make more money from home but I am at a loss. My mental state right now is bad, I feel like crying all of the time and I feel like my husband and I aren't communicating as well as we could be.

PCOS

Wow, it has been a long time since I have blogged but I think I will be doing it a lot more often, I really need a place to freely express what is going on and how I'm feeling and get feedback from people going through the same thing. I went to the Dr. on Friday, and I found out that I have PCOS, actually found out that I was diagnosed with it back in 2009, and was never told, at least I don't remember anyone tell me, (I have a really bad memory but my husband doesn't) So just dealing with that news and doing research on what we need to do from here.

Pow-Wow

When to the Pow-Wow this past weekend, it was great. A lot different then when I was a kid, it wasn't different I am. Growing up I didn't really like it, it was hot and boring and I'd have to be out in the sun all day. But it is so beautiful, the costumes the music just wonderful and to be there with family.

Sewing, a new hobby.

My lovely husband got me a sewing machine (a brother ?) for my birthday last month and I really love it, although I haven't finished any thing other then Aa few little things like kitten blankets, and yes I do mean blankets for my cats. I did start a play apron for my niece, that is coming along but wasn't finished in time for her birthday, but hopefully I'll get it done soon.

I do think that its amazing how much I remember (retained) from taking that class in jr. High, you know the one where we did sewing, cooking, computers and shop? I can't remember the name of it... Anyway there are things that just seem to come naturally when sewing, so I assume that it's from talking the sewing class.

I have been reading some really lovely blogs lately and I am so inspired to create lovely things, for my home, and as gifts.