Redefining Beautiful By Jenna Lucado

Oh my goodness this book is good, I have told my friends and my nieces they need to read it. I have said every Christian girl should read this book. It has become my new favorite book. I didn't have any sort of relationship with my biological father, but the one I have with my Heavenly father is unbreakable, this book made me cry and laugh, I've always known that a girl and her dad have a special bond that doesn't compare to anything else. Being with out a dad I have always looked up to my brother in law, he is the closest thing I've ever had to a dad and I am very thankful for him. What I really enjoyed was the 'workbook' part of the book, this is something I always enjoy from a book, being able to have a deeper look into my self. Learn more about me, and what Makes me "tick". I will be giving this book as gifts to my nieces.

Book review: Green, By Ted Dekker

I found the book odd and confusing, and honestly parts were a bit disturbing, I think it went to deep in describin the evilness of the world. I haven't read the other three, I wasn't able to keep up, I am not familiar with any of his books. "Green" wasn't for me, because it was hard to follow as a first-time reader of any Dekker book. I read that you could read this first, since it is the first and last of the series, but I don't find that to be true since he referred to the other books. I don't think I'll be reading the others, there are many other books that I plan to read.

Much needed update

WARNING NOT FOR THE FAINT OF HEART!

To my good friends, I am sorry that I hadn't told you about this sooner, just a lot has been going on, I am physically and emotionally exhausted. I'm not as tough as I used to be and I am in a lot of pain, but I am going to trug my way though this.

Its been so long since I've written anything here, so I thought I should start from a few months back, a few months ago I noticed a lump on my back near the spine (in between my shoulder blade and spine) it was starting to get painful when touched or even lightly rubbed against, like by my shirt so we decided to talk to my doctor about getting it removed, so we did, and we were referred to a Doctor and he/we decided that the next week, the 9th of October would be the day, well it all went seemingly well until we noticed a black scab like thing on my back covering most of the incision, knowing this wasn't right we called the Surgeon and asked him about it, he wanted to see us immediately, he looked at it and said that the skin flap had died, it wasn't infected and he wanted to see us on Thursday of that week, Once there and he had looked at it again he wanted to drain it, he stuck a 18 Gauge needle in my back, let me tell ya folks NOT FUN! He took out approximately 20cc of fluid. YUCK!! and said that he wanted me to go in for another surgery the next day on October 23, its been a long month for me. I now have a drain sticking out of my back and gauze and hospital tape across the top of my back.

Sorry for the run on sentences and the improper grammar, I'm tired and in pain.

Book Review: What difference do it make?

I didn't read , I did not even know there was a first one, but after reading 'Same kind of different as me' I will do so. What difference do it make? is the second book continuing the stories of Mr. Ron Hall and Denver Moore. This book is great, heartwarming, and heartfelt it made me laugh and cry. Reading this made me think, about what I could do to help others, it also made me think about how I could better my self by do so. It makes you think about what people do does make a difference in peoples lives, even if you don't do what Lucy does. (give money to rescue mission.) This is one of those books that can really change you into wanting to become a better person.

Book review: Fearless By Max Lucado

Fearless: Imagine Your Life Without Fear By Max Lucado.

We may label it different things we all have insecurities, things we wish we were better at, things we want to do but can't, but it all comes down to one thing, we are afraid. It reassures you about things you know, or might have forgotten. What you need comes when you need it. We all might WANT things, but do we NEED them? I for one struggle with this. Reading this book has helped me remember that God is here for me, when I need him I just need to take the time and pray.

There are things that we should be afraid of, things that just make the hair on your neck stand up, these aren't the fears he speaks of, the fearless part is, to trust that God will be there when you call on him, trust that God will see you though the storm.

I like how Max said: "We should all fall 'victim' to trust" trust in God.



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The reuniting of family

Last weekend was my family reunion. Since it was only a few hour gathering, we spent it in West Jordan Utah. Its always so nice to see people that you care about, especially when you only get to see a few times a year, if not only the once. I miss them.

For the 2010 reunion, we are planning to have it at Lagoon, I am so excited for this. I love lagoon I could ride "Rattle snake rapids" all day. I wish we could do it in October though, so we could be there for "Frightmares" Which rocks!! I haven't gone to Lagoon for a few years now, I used to go every year with my brother and his family. It was always so much fun.

YAY!! and also boo

The test came back. Clean, clear. Whatever you want to call it!! YAY! That was really good news, I found this out because I had a bad migraine again on Friday so I went to InstaCare and He was able to look it up on his computer thingy. Anyway I was, and am so relieved.

Now I'm just still wondering why I am still having headaches, I think its because I have a huge cavity and need a root canal... ugh I got it done for the most part today because last night I was having extreme mouth pain, so I had to make an emergency run to the dentist. I just need to have a permenent filling in and a crown. :/ not fun! But oh well...

Talk about a headache...

I have had a headache off and on for TWO weeks, its fine most of the time and when I say fine I mean that I am not in the fetal position, clutching my head like its going to fall off. My doctor wanted me to get an MRI on, my brain, Isn't that a CT scan? hmm? He wanted one done since I have NF and that could be the cause. The tech didn't say anything about seeing anything abnormal, if there was something they would have said something, right? RIGHT? ugh... I'm so scared, things like this don't usually worry me, I am really scared though.

Sometimes I can't even open my eyes because the little light that does get through my bedroom curttans feels like my brain is trying to push its way through my eye sockets. And the blinking, oh my goodness when I blink it feels like my eye lids are scraping away my eye ball... a little too graphic? Sorry! So I try to keep them shut. I was given a shot on Monday to help get rid of it, but no such luck, It made me really out of it and sleepy, sleepy was good but when I woke up there it was again, taunting me. I just want to feel "normal" again, I want to go through the day without having to take pain killers just to get up and feed the kitties. or even do normal day to day things.